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Loneliness is worse than being ill

   I think I was 14 when it turned out that it wasn’t possible for me to get the scholarship. So I sat down – and if the bench is still there, I could show it to you even today – and talked to myself. Told myself: what will become of you? It is hard talking to yourself, to be quite honest. I didn’t give myself anything remotely like an optimistic answer. There was nobody there, no one was interested; if I had fallen under a bus, there would have been no one to mourn for me. I think the loneliness was the worst thing. I always think that loneliness is worse than having an illness.
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